我相信,你永遠不會說再見

I believe, you'll not say goodbye.

為什麼? 也許...因為相信比較幸福

Why? Maybe...I'll be happier believing.

但是,有可能是因為...

But,maybe its because...

你值得相信.

You're worth believing.









WTF?!

YOU want me to be nice to this ASShole that ruined my birthday?

HE'LL DIE SOON, I PROMISE YOU

JUST DIE, ASSHOLE....









some important stuff i ought not to forget

I have to go for class gathering on 17 dec
I also have to go for 5566 concert on 17 dec
HOW?! wth... i dun wan to go sembawang ler then go expo again lah?
tts like...stupid...
go sembawang park there feed mosquito, hot and sticky, then go for concert? siao ah??
nvm.shall think of a solution...

S.H.E's new album rawkz...Chao nice...may be buying it tml

going to yayi's house tml...

saw niu niu and xuan xuan jie today...v happy...

look out for wan yu nxt wk/ nxt nxt wk, cos xuan jie says the thing niu is filming will be on wanyu... happi happi... i LOVE XUAN XUAN JIE! yoohoo... she totally rawks...
asked xuan jie to wen hou awei and fu... duno when she going back siaz....
hope same as niu...cos wan to pass her letter for awei and fu...
now writing letter for fu and niuniu...

will not be blogging so often here alr....
sick of typing english ler
will be typing in CHINESE
wahahahas...

www.wretch.cc/blog/estherzax

go visit ok? the layout damn cute....









its my birthday TODAY!

woohoo....

received one message from chewps at zhun zhun 12am
hahaha...

so pathetic siaz, only got 1 person
suan lerrr.... i only want zhu fu from jie
lolz... her zhu fu more valuable neh

HAPPY...though i wont be getting present
but anyway, my mum's gonna bring me out for dinner tml
swensens probably
havent decided.hehe

im VERY VERY LAZY
how? i've got alot of things to be done
jiazu, photos, blog
ARGH
im going crazy
i hate doing stuff
i wanna hand jue dui jia li over to someone alr
finding people....

wentt for 56 auto yest
v happy..
fu saw my fu feng board then kept smiling at me
then sunzong v nice...
v polite
is like, i was at e stairs there
then saw him, so look at him, then he saw me looking at him
so he smile and nod at me, then i do back the same
hehe..so happy!
then meng got see my qinjin board also...

going the concert w magg...
finally managed to convince her
haha....but she paying me by instalments lorhh...
so dots...
i only goin for the sake of my weiru siaz
my dearrr weiru....
will see her provided she doesnt tui tuan
hahaha....

jus fa xian tt cs audition not over yet
v xiang go participate sia
but... suan lerrr....
as fu says

qian yue le bu yi ding hui hong

i rather wait until nxt time then i try jue dui...
xiao yuan not as gd as jue dui...
jue dui more will hong


SHEENA ONG
im veri veri irritated w you ok...
so irritating
nvm..tis time u dun go
nxt time i drag u to jue dui i tell u...

chris went for the audi
then sang wrong lyric...
so der wad, i forgot to tell her wad kelly said about wang ci-ing

veri veri colddddd.....









SUGI AND WILLIAM ARE CUTE

SO IS KELLY

Anyway, i'm FREEZING now
just finished like 3/4 container of ice cold ice kachang
like face it man, who eats ice kachang at 130am?
and the ice kachang isnt even like those normal ones u buy
its frozen. which means its just as one entire block and you have to chop chop chop and wait for the thing to melt before you can eat
tts why i took 1 entire hour to eat, and still did not finish it
wind is blowing.......

went to see css today
met alot of people....
evelyn, catherine etc
then nth to do, kept smsing jie and yilin
ask for bdae present mahhhx
hahaha...
still didnt buy huis present

hais...
56 concert guest is 7f leh
how?! qi si wo ler....
shud hav bought earlier...
regret like hell can
hope they will be xuan chuan-ing at tt time also

didnt watch psc night....
damn tired so went to slp
hope tt someone will put up on bt lorhh
now oso not say v interested in 56

most interested is fir
then energy
then others jus heck ler...gt go no go no diff
went to dev photos
damn ma fan cann...stupid machine
then the guy quite nice...kept helping me do
then giv me envelop sumore
photos all william derrick der
only got 2 or 3 gt sinhuey
kelly oso ard 2 or 3
cos i wanted to tk william mah
then derrick beside him
so take together lorh

WILLIAM DAMN CUTE!!

actually, i dont feel like going for the auto tml lorh
feel like going to see chris auditioning
hehe...
but...wei le fu feng, bo bian lorhh..
haix..
and wei le qinjin also...
suan ler...
hope fiona can go
i dun wan to siao siao go alone siaz....

f.r.e.e.z.i.n.g

thou im not gonna participate css bt i think hao songs to sing ler
haha....

Slow song-

Kelly- December
eVonne- 7 Yue 7 Ri Qing
JJ- Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou
F.I.R- Ying Xu Zhi Di
Bei Ai De Nv Ren
Wo Hen Wo Ai Ni
Twins- Mo Si Ke Mei You Yan Lei
Cyndi- Tang Guan Zi
Energy- Zui Hou Yi Ci
Elva- Zui Shu Xi De Mo Sheng Ren
7F- Say You Love Me
7F- My Dear Friend
F.I.R- Liu Lang Zhe Zhi Ge
Kone- Gong Zhu Bi Xia
Real- Xiao Shi

Fast song-

F.I.R- Revolution
F.I.R- Fly Away
S.H.E- Xing Guang
Jay- Qing Tian
F.I.R- Ai De Li Liang
F.I.R- Ni De Wei Xiao
Alan- Ling
Jolin- Shuo Ai Ni
F.I.R- Ci Niao
F.I.R- Love*3
F.I.R- Qian Nian Zhi Lian
F.I.R- Wu Xian

so far only think of lidat...hahas..
got alot sias!
hehe...initially wanna add shan hu hai
but shan hu hai is duet
so not so easy to sing...yea....

chao ai william!









珊瑚海

Click for lyrics


Coral Sea! I LOVE that song to bits....
Have been trying to learn how to sing that song for the past 1/2 hour.
But haven't succeeded so far...
Got stuck at the 轉身離開 分手說不出來
becos the 出來 has to be sung really high pitched
and i can't reach the note!
So frustrated with myself...
I can't follow Lara's key...Too high!
But when i listen and sing i'll be led off by her voice
so....
Well...Shall do more "researching" tomorrow
I have to succeed! If not i'll feel stupid
And whatever...

I love jay chou!

合: 海鳥跟魚相愛 只是一場意外

男: 我們的愛 差異一直存在
女: 給的愛 差異一直存在 回不來

男: 風中塵埃　竟累積成傷害
女: 等待竟累積成傷害

合: 轉身離開 分手說不出來

合: 蔚藍的珊瑚海 錯過瞬間蒼白

I love the song,the tune,the lyrics, and the people singing it!

CORAL SEA!

shall be next up on my blog music list!
Am trying to uploadd now...Will put up if it succeeds!

oh,managed to download SHA2005!
one hour twenty minutes
Yeppz
cut out all the F.I.R parts and posted onto MY-FIR and Flying Dream
But all realplayer der...
I provide still got people want to complain..
WTF...I spent like duno how long trying to upload
1 hour at least...
at least appreciate lah, still complain so much
complain then dun dl lorh
big deal... u dont dl i sumore happier
wont expire so fast...

Dl-ed 091105 wanyu
Jay magic tricks!
Lolz...But quality isn't good
so i'm currently trying to dl another ver
from god-knows-where
ydy i think...either ydy or by

Added alot of stuff to my phone
its finally working!
but i'm not overjoyed
i don't have space in my phone...
which is pathetic
loaded dAdA jie fu's music love story
3mb plus...
now my camera can only take 5 pics
pathetic...am considering to buy a new memory card
which means i've to transfer my stuff over AGAIN
argh...and a 256 isn't going to be cheap
ah well....since i'm going to get all the cds i want for my birthday
shall see what's the price first

Huis- November's Chopin
Yang- Still considering [ME]
Mag jIe- Still thinking [HER]
Qijian- This one... I heck ler...He want to give then give lor.
Debbs- I want my present!
Chewps- was trying to convince her to call 933 for the EG poster...duno what happen in the end...but she SAYS she'll get me idol stuff
My parents- i don't know... so far i don't have anything i want...memory card maybe..haha...

The others- I expect an ANGPAO of at least $5 from you ok!

If 10 people give me $5 each, i'll get $50
then if i get my mum and dad to give me lets say $30
and i'll start telling my cousins that my birthday's coming soon
not to forget my DEAR SENIOR, who has the same birthday as me! =)
i shall hold a buffet thing at my house
invite all my relatives
will probably get at least $50
then i'll be able to go for concert! YAY!
also, i shud mention that the buffet food will be self cooked!wahaha...
bee hoon, fried rice, chicken wings, satay, fish cake....
low low price!

oh, 56 was on 933 today
i FORGOT to listen!
until i was at CK with my mum and dad
was listening to my phone mp3
then suddenly heard "Wo Shi Xie Zhi"
i froze, then continued listening
YES! ZHI'S VOICE!
my gosh...I was being so irritated...
the thing was i think 3/4 through alr...
Becos when i heard the "adver" on 933 yesterday, it said 8pm
and i FORGOT
argh....Hate myself...
Didn't hear Fu's voice...Only heard Zhi and Meng
Zhi said he wanted to go duno where
then he say him, Shao and Mingdao want to go overseas together, becos they all do travelling shows before...And yea they're right lah...But i think my eyes will pop if i see the 3 of them together...so rare hoh?
Meng says he wants to go...eh..cant remember ler...
he say becos las time got study in geo, then seems v interesting or sth
nv hear properly
after tt had Yes I Love You as the ending

Then Jiahui said tt they're giving out GOF tics and EG concert vcd+poster
so agitated...smsed chewps
asked her to help me win for my bdae present
wahaha...but left after hearing...dont know who actually got them
so irritated...becos i wanted to take my mp3 before i go out
then my mum lock der door...so i was thinking take hp oso can lah
then in the end..ARGH...
so irritating

was so irritated about the 56 thing tt i decided to vent my anger
haha!
walked around the few pathetic shelves iN CK and took ALOT of food
food worth $13.90 altogether
Mamee,Ruffles,Cuttlefish,Mint Sweet, Kitty sweet, Van Houten Almond
hehe...Veri long nv buy tidbits ler mahh...
can't help it...hope these can last me for at least 4 to 5 days
which i may go out and buy ruffles again after tt

i love hair conditioner!
i don't use to use conditioner
but after using it for the first time yesterday
i'm loving it!
haha...
makes my hair so soft...
but feels like i havent wash my hair thoroughly and my hair is still full of shampoo
lolz...but i love the soft feeling

very random i know
i wanna make a new layout!
had an idea just now
but cant remember now...
haix...

watched feng mian ren wu twice
once ytd, once today
both times wanted to cry!
tears were halfway out already..but i managed to "swallow" them back lor
very gan dong....
Ke Ge, we all don't wish to see you cry!
I've decided tt i shall write a letter to ke ge when they come
really touching stuff he said...
Xie Xie Ni, Ke Ge! Whatever you do will be in our hearts forever

Weiru ah, be contented with what you have!
Jiayou and Jian chi xia qu!
Bu yao zai han tui tuan ler...Ru guo ni tui tuan wo hui hen shang xin der...

NIU! u don't think i duno
everytime so late then sleep
i nothing to do tml so i can sleep late..
but why u always online in the mid of the night!?
i very angry ahh...
you better go sleep earlier! if not i'll fly to tw and scold you ok?
quick so sleep ler...if not tml no energy to dance

im in love with EG
have been trying to force myself not to like them
wo bu ke yi yue xian yue shen...
i know once i xian jin qu, i'll be very obsessed
i really don't wish to be one of those at the hotel, at the airport, trying to squeeze and see them, but hurt them in the process
i seriously don't want to hurt them anymore...
it's really painful seeing them always surrounded by fans and getting pushed in the process...so hurting for me,even more hurting for you
Dui bu qi, wo bu ke yi yue xian yue shen...

am regretting the day at jqj
had so much chance to talk to them but i din
and NO SECURITY!
no security,no fans!
my goshh...
shall wait for nxt year's jqj
hope that F.I.R going...then i'll still be buying the $88 tics

LIU QIAN IS FABULOUS!
His magic is...incredible...
and the worse thing
i still cant find out the logic behind the simplest magic
argh....
ok lah, i admit tt i have low iq
sorry lorh
shall go and research on magic tricks these few days
have been doing photoshop for the past 2 days
pretty much mastered some stuff
still suck at blending though
or rather, dont know how to blend
yea...

there was this show on lawrence and priscilla some time back
they dont look like what they do on stage
just...pretty much normal people
but their shows are amazing
not just pure magic
with some drama, some acting inside
RECOMMENDED!

ruthie blogged!
People going for campus superstar
read her blog for tips ok?
Have read it personally...
seems quite common sense
but once you're nervous
you tend to forget everything
so...no harm reading!

had this crazy idea
of going for campus superstar
not to win, but to actually hear the judges' opinions on my voice
so that i can improve
and then another crazy idea
to record my voice and give to jie
ask her for opinions
ask her how she maintains her vocal
and stuff...
shall add that in the letter next time [the advice, not the recording]
yea...

saw the superhost commercial
the first person seriously made me laugh like siao lorh
"Sir, you want coffee, soya bean, chrysanthemum tea?"
Kaoz...Damn funny..the 2nd one not bad also
"Ling Yi Guai Tan....Heeeee..."
Dots...Her "heeee" damn kong bu sia!

Went to macs to tan sheen der ban yesterday
stupidly sat there for 3 hours
chatted with huis
watched sheen work
her manager was this damn funny guy...
they're like one big family...
so wen xin... make me feel like working there too
then sheen say her kitchen there very "happening" der
dots...
when sheen knock off we sat there and chatt...
then suddenly her manager said "chi da bian"
then i glance at sheen and started laughing..
she like...aiyo, say so loud, customer here lehh...
damn funny sia!

tried to convince sheen to join campus ss
got quite a few people in kfc joining [not the zhong dian]
said tt we wasted our time waiting for her just to say that
and she shud bao da wo men
blah blah blah
and she still refused lorhh!
i dont care mans.i'm gonna DRAG her to the registration on the 19th
some people i know are joining
good luck SUPERSTAR!
[she zi ji xin zhi du ming]

jiayous everyone joining!

...Sheen and Nat...
...Yuhui and YK...
...Meikie and Darren Jiang...

::Darren, Alan, Shawn, Nicholas, Shi Yu, Milk, Vanness, JY, Xiao Tian::

All my dears...9 in total! Haha...
mORE and more...
becos now alot of newcomers
like Alan...
and Xiao Tian [cos now then know him]
San Ge Zi is damn nice
still considering if i should buy the OST

maybe...will get Yang to buy me Alan's gaiban
Alan going to M'sia at the end of Nov
Sg shud be before that
towards end nov also...

want to set up Alan fc!!!
cant access SBMG website today
always lidat...so irritated

LOOKING FOR PEOPLE TO CHASE ALAN! ANYONE INTERESTED??

I desperately wanna find people chase alan with me lorhh...

PLEASE!!

ALAN, ROCK AND ROLL FOREVER!

FOREVER ALAN, FOREVER ROCK AND ROLL!

ALAN! ALAN! ALAN! ALAN! ALAN! ALAN! ALAN!

ok, shall go into my room to watch vcd liaox...
Hehe...
Blog more tml...Shall blog about my entire chasing F.I.R der experience this time
^_^









yeah!

41.7 % !!!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

hahaha! very eager to see my jie with the nice nice costume again

watching shaowei's old show

SO CUTE....

watched 7f feng mian ren wu
almost cried..
they all cried, becos ke ge cried!
haix...

they even more cham than rnb sia...

okok...shall go back to watching..









some people
think that they know alot
try to give advice
advice tts totally of NO USE
and cause everyone to quarrel
at the end, still say that she think her solution is the BEST
and ask everyone not to quarrel
but in the first place, the quarrel started cos of HER
these kinda people are called irritatants

some people
are absolutely of no use
dont give good advice
talk crap
and still dare to go there scold people
these people are called assholes

some people
contribute alot
but still get stressed in the end
because people dont understand
the people tt dont understand are called idiots
the people tt contributed are called nice people
so unlike the many others i've mentioned above

my conclusion after reading the entire board...

oh, and i made this just now! cos tiff was asking me about tt tutorial...was asking if i knew how to do...then i was like...erh...i nida try before concluding..so went to try.and happily, i succeeded! haha...so simple right. but cannot blame me lorh. i duno like 1 whole mth nv touch photoshop... cept for the time... 15 oct or sth, made the ji wei shou tu...











ARGHH...

F*CK....Was typing something in tis msn window....
the person was offline alr
accidentally pressed enter
the thing jus went into the convo, and showed only 2 sentences
the rest was like .....
ARGHHH!!!
SO DAMNIT STUPID!!!
F*CKING STUPID....

GRRR...I SPENT 1 HOUR TYPING!!!!!!

ARGHHHH!!!!!!

NOW I'VE TO TYPE AGAIN TML

ALL BECOS OF TT STUPID IE!!!

my comp seriously SUCKS...









CONGRATS!

Congratulations to F.I.R for winning Zui Shou Huan Ying Zu He! [eh,zu he right?]

Love Faye alot alot alot alot!

So far still can see my board worhhx...Hehe..I know that jie loves me...

Today wake up early early go airport...then kor like blur blur.not enough slp...then jie v happy...gave her the las minute write de letter. then qijian gave the present.then jie told him tt veri cute...

very veri happy....then when going in i wanted to tell kor go rest der...but he dun wan to chap me so i told jie...

me: faye, hui chu hao hao xiu xi o!
her: hao, xiexie! bye bye!

but i din manage to shake their hand...aiya, shake dao sian le..nxt time still got chance der... then aft tt wait and wait for 4 hours until laoshi come.then qijian gave his present.and we bot tis photo album and put alot of photo inside.we very jue....do alot of "touching up" to the photo...hahaha!
gave laoshi the album.then got the q ban fir.he walk and see at the same time mahhx...then walk and see, saw the q ban from my fone, then like very happy.then show the xuanchuan...
the qin de q ban veri veri cute!!!! i wan to develop also...

spent like $20 on photos lorh.siao...
bo lui le....haha.actually still got $20 de.then i kip saying i bo lui...
cos dun wanna spend mahhx

go up and down for alot of times...the photo shop person know us v well...hahahas
go down, dev abit, go up again. half hour later go down dev another batch
then go up, awhile later go down for another batch
then 1 plus leaving le go again to collect meizhen de foto
hahas....veri nice! i ask meizhen help me develop the entire thing....

laoshi see the thing veri happy...then i oso veri happy.lolz
he so lonely leh, 1 person go back...
love laoshi...
so nice lorh,go in q up then we stand there and wave
then he turn i kip gesturing say wn to tk foto, but the foto blurrrr
argghh....stupid cammm!
then i dun wan him wait too long so even blur i oso say ok
haix..nvm..nxt time take again...sure got chance der

**** ** fan wasnt here today
she came late
WAHAHAH....haha
happy.....
then faye go in with qin le, then we bu si xin
she came out again...then go upstairs buy something
then went down, on the way eatin
then saw us le, kip waving to us...
still rmb the las time...jump jump jump
so cute nehhx! hahahaha

tis time auntie found alot of people to chase with her sia
not interested anw
lolz.

saw eg...but alot of people dun wan to squeeze w them
but at jqj i xia dao
cos rush infrnt tk foto of jie
then stand at the fst seat there, they sitting in middle mah
then stand there trying to take jie, suddenly 3 white figures walked here and sat down infrnt of me!
my tian... i shock dio...i was like.OH MY TIAN, SHUWEI LEH!
then i faster start taking eg, then heck about fir le
hahaha....
then i so flattered.SHU so nice, tk foto w other ppl mah
then my cam beside him, he look at my cam instead of tt person de cam!
so cool...but mei you pai dao
sian...but meizhen de cam i tink got pai dao dada pose
i got 1 nice one of di. then dada got tis eyes big big de.hen cute!
wanted to tk pic with shu de, but the security so irritating lah
block me...

3 people told me i on tv
so maluating!
grrr...stupid camera man sia
irritating de lorhx!
hmphhhx....
kip pai-ing ru lai shen zhang

at the end i standing behind **** *** mah, then he damn tall kip blocking me
pig lah him
then i tk my board and jump jump jump
jie saw then wave, then kip nodding happily
me veri veri happy! hehehe....
she nod veri long worhhx..wanted to act shake hand w her
but wan to do she look away le,sian....
qin got wave to maggie mee
then laoshi look abit disappointed i guess
but he veri gd mood at airport today
cos i think he think tt we not going...but we went!
see, laoshi , we love you also!

jus now dreamt about laoshi
dream tt he going somewhere
then i veri sad, then i cry
then cannot remember le
hahaha...short term memory

duno if jie remember my name hoh
nxt time ask her....hahax.
i think ytd she jus see tis small small ban in the air then noe is for her der
cos very few siao people will use so small de ban
cover face oso not enough de...
haha...
i wan to make new board

mag one is for qin and laoshi le
then i wan to make 1 for jie
but duno wht to make lehhhx
vocal?!

-------------thank you messages--------------

dada, take care.... zao ri kang fu! see you lidat i very sad u noe... very xin tong lehh...thou u look veri happy at jqj...but anyway, dada xiao xin ok! dun hurt urself again..bao zhong...

shu, happy birthday leh! ytd forgot to tell you ahh....today oso no chance...haix...so many people wan to give you present...xing fu worhhx...4 big bags of presents...

di, eh, duno what to say...jiayous and take care of yourself ok?

niuniu, dear! dont be so zi ze ok? its not your fault... if the whole thing made you so sad, i rather you dont do tt tiing le. come back jiazu liuyan good enough le! ok? jiayou jiayouz....

connie jie, about today at the airport...we were quite demanding, wanting you to take all the presents...really sorry about that... i know you guys were quite in a hurry. was quite irritated at fst but after i thought about it, i think we're too demanding le. sorry connie jie! thanks for being such a nice xuanchuan!

mr handsome, why u so early leave? we wait for you until 1am lehh...haiyo...heng the other xuanchuan told us...if not we veri cham....

the other xuanchuan, eh, sorry ah, duno ur name... no chance ask you....thanks for being such a nice nice nice nice xuanchuan! love you lots! nxt time fir come if you there i buy present for you kae? ^_^

security uncle, uncle, thank you leh! so nice.... we wont scare you nxt time le...can smoke fst.... if really come we can run there fst u come later oso nvm der.hahaha...thanks for telling us laoshi's plane no! hehe... ming nian jian!

dongliang, thanks for shaking hand with me! haha! LOVE DONGLIANG LOTS! yoohoo...shall go buy his album soon.... so cute lorhhx! DONG LIANG JIAYOU!!! WO ZHI CHI NI!

char, thanks for waving to us! hehe~! i think gill was abit tired i guess... i love char too! char and gill jiayou!

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