the BT-ers...

Pride of BT hear us shout
BT-ers will come in loud
Hu-ah that's what we are
Hu-ah we're like a star
Ever forceful ever BianTai go~
BT-ers the spirits high
Come together sure can HIGH
Go (clap)Go (clap clap)
Go (clap)Go (clap clap)
BT WOOOOOH!

小时侯我总会这样幻想快长大
只是渴望能够学习别人追偶像

为了追zy不小心认识bt-ers
这件小事却让我印象深刻

虽然我们不住同区 分隔国家的四边
却每次都约见面 熟悉kee siao的脸

回忆起我们那时候，我们都常常high过头
在我们心中那最深刻的笑声
离开了熟悉mdc 现在都很想大家吗
也许就只有bt-ers 永是朋友 forever

回忆起我们小时候,我们都常常high过头
每次在一起都要crap完了才走
如今这些到了段落 我们终究是bt-ers
那些日子 忘不了

那次以后我们还是继续见面 我只能说 we rock!

i really missed the old days. BT-ers, i miss you gals!

im really really really sorry, zhiyang. for being unable to attend the get high concert... sighhs. we're really sorry!

now at net cafe at bras basah... finally managed to get a comp. desperate liaoos.

went to shifu's shop w pinky just now. stayed there for like 2 hrs plus... chui-ing aircon. hahas!

KOR COMING LERRRS!!!! 2 more days!!!!! i love HUANGHANQING! :DDDDD









they dont believe. cuz they have their minds set. "THIS IS THE TRUTH." and nothing else will be. so be it, i dont care.

我絕望,絕望於這個複雜的世界.

`it's my life, broken into pieces

誰拉住我 誰救救我
我從高空 狠狠的墜落

i'm losing faith, losing hope, losing trust in everything.


on a lighter note.

desired course [in order of preference]:
SP - Diploma in Music and Audio Technology
SP - Diploma in Media & Communication (Mass Communications)
NP - Mass Communications
TP - Diploma in Communications & Media Management
NP - Diploma in Film, Sound and Video

it's all talk lah. how to get into the course when my current L1R5 is 31?! i've to work hard. and i've to master my guitar cuz i really really really want to take DMAT. i duno if i should take mass comm. sighhs. tourism and resort management and integrated events management sounds cool too. but i think i'll die from the work they're going to assign so... =.=

i aspire to be a song composer!

nyp doesnt offer any useful info about their courses lehs. so i cant actually make out what courses they offer. i'll prefer np over sp but the courses i want all at sp lahh. =.= rp doesnt offer anything i want...

rahhs. whateverrs.









傷心, 不是沒有原因的.

絕望, 也不是沒有原因的.

我絕望,絕望於這個複雜的世界.

我納悶, 為什麼認真的人會這樣被中傷,這樣被傷害.認真,不過就是想把最好的表現出來.而因為這份認真,讓外界無法揣測他的真正性格,因而以謠言來中傷他.我知道這種感覺.很難受.卻又能怎麼做?無奈...

禹哲,要凭自己的力量度過這個難關!加油...證明你不是這樣的人!

或許... 我不了解他,不能做出什麼評論.不過...即使不是針對他說這些話...我想,對每個人都一樣.誰不怕受傷害?但傷害之中,除了無奈,還是無奈.

這個世界的虛假. 這個世界的複雜...我真的絕望了嗎?

I wish i could ignore you, and carry on with my life.

I wish i had more motivation to be present. But really. You deny me that motivation.









after blogging about friday in CHINESE, im going to blog in english! haha... abit siao but since im free i shall do it... LOL

okayyy. the day started off with... lessons! rahh. prev night slept from 7plus till 3am, then woke up and watched tv till 7am. then went back to sleep and cldnt wake up on time at 8.haha. in e end pia cab to sch. then i was late! rahh. so dumb larrs, cuz i cldnt get a cab... how was i supposed to know tt time der cab so hard to wait siaa. reached sch ard 1010, met yang at str 13 gate. then went to class... reached at 1015... mrs sherwood's lesson. oops. haha.

after that had lit, then chem. was being very enthu during chem i duno why. haha! i answered like every single qn ms prav asked. i think i was being enthu cuz i finally managed to understand what she was teaching. wheee~ lit was okayy, ms jeya printed notes for us so we didnt have to copy. :)

rights. after lessons, went for lunch... was on the way to the canteen when i spotted a familiar person on the bridge. then i went, eh, MRS ANG! haha... she brought her baby~ :) went to kajiao her. she was like, finally i see a familiar face... lol. then i went with her to staff room, she was being super lame lah. cuz ms choo was outside staff rm but on the phone. so i told her, then she hid behind me so tt ms choo wont see her. then she asked me to call ms choo. but i din cuz she was on e phone. so i said we go into staff rm see if got other people first. but when i turned, ms choo turned also, and saw mrs ang. then she gave tt AHH! kinda look. LOL. so ya la, they went to chat lorh, then i went off liao. msged the others to tell them tt mrs ang was back, tried to get everyone to kajiao her. LOL....

yeahh then went to meet ade cheryl and eve for lunch. went to buy toast... like wth, the queue was so long. =.= waited for super long. but nevermind laa, cuz had quite alot of time. yepps. then we ate and chatted. and it started raining! sighhhhs. every year sports day mus rain der. proves tt they duno how to choose the day one leh. after which we went to eve's class to slack for awhile. went down to specs stand at ard 220. shdnt have gone so early, so many ppl werent there yet lorhs. yeahh went there to slack, joined geri and tiak. after that geri and tiak went e other side cuz they were perimeter, then sam came to join me.

the entire thing only begun at ard 5pm. so late! sighs. cuz of the stupid rain larrs. then we din get to do all the contingent and family dance and whatever. did the cheer on the specs stand... but its good cuz this year red got new specs stand! yeahhhs :) yuppps the races begun quite late too. recorded down the cheer routines. :) red was good! hees. and i managed to see the combined routine before leaving! yeahhhs~ was very happy. haha.

ermm wells. i had to leave at around 7... from 645 drag until 7 plus then leave. cuz i thot they would announce the results wad, then in the end they talk talk talk and still din announce the results. but bo bian, had to leave or i would be late for the concert. yeahhs so left around 710 lidat, went outside to wait for cab. like wth, so sian one! no cab again! aiyo. waited damn long, finally got a cab at 720. uncle asked me which way to take, i said anything la, can reach fast can liaos. lol

eh wait, i wanna say something. RED IS CHAMPION THIS YEAR! YEAH! :D

managed to get to rp at ard 740. went into the auditorium... din see anyone familiar, so went to sit down first. was about to msg xzellyn when i heard them shouting for me. haha. they were infront w cream they all... so went to find them... then after that we decided to go look for the backstage place. got outta e auditorium, then went to the backstage area...

so stupid larrs. haha. they damn can act one leh! lols. they actually went up to the person at the backstage and asked for the entrance. then saw toilet there, they were like, can we use the toilet, we find toilet v long liaoos. diaoos. then the people brought food out and put on the table. i was like, ehh, got food leh! haha. then we waited while meiyi went toilet. after that we were still standing there, this guy asked what we wanted. so weijin asked if she cld take mineral water. i was so tempted by the curry puff, so i was like, errmm, can i eat...? hahaha! then they said ya of cuz, take lor... dorts.

honestly. the curry puff horr, cold one! leftover... sian. haha. but okayy la, hungry anything also can eat. lols. ya lorh, so after that we left the backstage place lorhs. went back into the audi. concert begun about 8pm. so went to sit down... shifted down to sit with xzellyn, weijin and meiyi.

i was very impressed. VERY IMPRESSED. haha. i liked halfestride's performance! omgosh la their lead vocalist was like WOW. and was very impressed with olivia guo and clara chua. clara chua's performance made me wanna learn to sing jazz! her performance was seriously damn good. and the 4 divas were WOW laa! omgosh. [4 divas = ross[halfestride], leandra, matilda, clara] abit regret not recording down. but i damn enjoyed their performance sia...and u can totally marvel at how fast olivia guo's fingers can move, and her skill of playing cello while standing. damn good! shiok ahh...

MILUBING's performance was towards the end... they put all the hong ones together. haha. first was leandra, then matilda, clara, syed azmir, mlb then weilian... anywayyyyys. something very tragic happened to us when they appeared on stage. hahaha!

okayys, cuz there were empty seats in the middle. so xzel weijin and meiyi shifted down there to sit, i joined them after that. then when mlb appeared on stage, we as usual jus screamed like crazy lah. then the lady infront of us was kinda =.= i think. then after screaming for awhile, she went "i can bring you all infront..." so obviously we were very happy and agreed. then we followed her infront, to the center block first row. after that, we kinda realised that it wasnt tt a good thing.

actually, what happened was, we were being too noisy screaming, then kana complain by the vip... then in the end we kana 'invited' to the front by the vip. wahlau, damn sia suay! so paiseh lorh! like the whole auditorium how many hundreds of people watch us being 'invited' to the front sia. omgoshh. damn cham. then even after shifting infront, we continue screaming and shouting like siao. even more sia suay. then weijin kept saying she dun dare to go back after that to get her bag, cuz damn paiseh. haha...

okayy, so mlb begun their performance lars. talk about the interview first... this jensen[host] very bad, keep trying to kui weiqi! haha... and we were damn noisy. he intro-ed weiqi, then talk a whole load of crap without saying who it is. then we all went WEIQI!!! haha. this nic ahh, cute ah. jensen say wendy kan zhong one of the boys. then keep trying to hint here hint there. then in e end he asked wendy, if u can choose betwn they 3 and me, who w u choose? then nic behind say "WE LIKE JENSEN!" funny ahh... hahaha....

i think wendy like weiqi bahh? haha. i duno also... cuz jensen keep kui-ing weiqi. duno why also. then when jensen initially say she like one of them, duno why... i jus got a feelin is nic. then i shouted NIC! haha... i think he also abit o.O lorhs. LOL! but aiyaa, this nic so cute, how can people dont like him! hahaa... [我在講你的好話ah. 不要欺負我.哈哈...]

then after that wendy asked sam to talk about their childhood. then wahlau, this sam v wth one leh! he said... '看就知道, 我是最乖的...' then all of us immediately OI, WHERE GOT?! hahaha....v bad la us. lols. then he said '真的,我真是最乖的...' we all sit there and wth him only. lols. then jensen say should ask weiqi, cuz hes the more honest one. then who knows ahh... weiqi actually went '沒有嗎, sam很乖的...' wth, lao kui. we all sit there and sian lorhs. lols!

duno what they ask... then after asking liao weiqi's reaction was... "... huh...?" damn funny. haha! but okayy laa, typical weiqi so... :P nic never talk much leh. talk abit only. say about the album and blah. mostly is sam talking nia...

rights. first song was zi you! quite high haha. the sound system cut ceh again. infront cant hear the vocals... music too loud. mic too soft. then i sit there and sian again. haha. always got tis kinda thing happen one leh. but v high la tt song, we all scream and sing like siao. lol. then record come out all our voice. hahaa...

cuz tis song v loud... then after tis song ended, suddenly become v quiet, then we heard fire alarm! alamak. haha. mlb too power liaoo, cause fire alarm to ring. lols. then nic ahhs... he went ".... did we do that...?" hahaha. super funny! i was laughing like siao lars. lol. then this jensen very bad... he went 'Nic, don't worry, it's not your fault... Sam, don't worry, it's not your fault either... But weiqi, it MAY be your fault...' then we OI him... lols!

after abit of checking... everything seemed to be okayy so we continued with the performance. second song was '想你是臨睡的習慣'... by dong li huo che. i think tis song is nic choose der? haha cuz he say he w sing dong li huo che songs mah. lols. but anyway its a nice song :) before the song begun, shouted to sam... say mic gotta be louder. then he did thumbs up... haha. but horr, cut ceh again. song started, 2 sentences into the song was weiqi's part. then his mic bo sound. so in the end had to ask the pa room ppl to adjust, then started again.

omgosh, i loved tt song like loads! haha. its super damn nice really. sam's vocals ahh... nothing to say ah. melts our hearts manns. plus the blend of nic and weiqi's voices. goshh... loved it!!! v long nv hear them sing slow songs lerrs... nic sing slow song damn nice. wahhhh... tt song was really a WOW. so far i think e best performance i've seen from them. most touching performance... when i heard it live i really abit ji pi ge da liaos. cuz really damn nice! then subsequently i listened to the recording at least 20-30 times these few days, i can cry every single time i listen lorhs. goshhh.

las song was chasing cars... tt one also damn good. liked it alot also. i think its really good how they're improving every single time we see them, and tryin out new songs etc... damn sad laa the 2nd song... can cry every time i listen. cuz i feel the lyrics are damn touching, and the way he sing really brings out the emotions. damn good! :) the 23 bucks damn worth. oh yeahhs, sam was on the guitar for the 2nd and third song... yepps~

then ahh... mus mention this ah. weijin! aiyo, she kept making me laugh throughout chasing cars. cant remember what we were saying during the second song. but my recording come out got our voice. then chasing cars, halfway thru the song become faster so we started clapping. then she say xzellyn look like da jie da, cuz she clap until v qi jing. then after that she jus keep telling me stuff to make me laugh! then in the end the recording got her voice and my laughter inside. what the. =.=

yeahh after mlb was weilian's performance. weilian bian shuai le! haha... he sang chu mo and i cant remember what larrs. but his performance quite good also. like his voice... and he damn funny. haha! he talk talk talk, then suddenly got one little girl come onstage and give him this heart keychain or smth. then he took liao, he went '是heart leh. inside the heart got one more heart... my heart very small, can contain the heart...' i also duno what the heck he talking about. but v cute jiu dui le. haha...

then was finale liaoo. wendy brought weilian a lil to the back to prepare for finale, then suddenly someone shouted 'WEILIAN BYE BYE!' then everyone dorts... cuz he still on stage. then he went '偉聯還沒有要走拉,我只是退後一點而已...' haha, damn cute leh him. lols. still rmb las time the '螞蟻咬我' with kelly. abit wth la, tt recording make me laugh like siao. lols.

so they invited everyone out... this mlb v weird one, hide behind all the tall tall people, then cannot see them at all. diaoo. after that nic got see here abit, so i waved to him. he got wave back, but i also not sure if he was waving to me la.haha. hmm yeahhs, then finale finished, weijin they all went to take their bags, then we ran to backstage area...

waited for awhile, then cream they all came to join us. then we waited... saw weilian come out with jason. said bye to them... weilian almost fell down the stairs ah. aiyo... asked him to be careful... saw michelle. duno if got see melissa, cuz i also cant rmb how she look like liao. haha. i stared at michelle for damn long, cuz i see she damn familiar but dun rmb who she is. after she left then i was like, ohya,michelle! haha. yeahh so weilian left in 7887...

after weilian left, they closed the door of the backstage area. so we duno how... then xzel and meiyi went to front door to see. after awhile me and weijin went also. then cream they all came also. stay at front door for awhile, damn sian larrs. saw someone... then saw leandra wendy syed azmir and quite alot of ppl left from front door. so we thot they w leave from front door... then meanwhile we crap lorhs... haha.oh then meiyi and xzel went back to backstage area...

super funny... we stand there and crap alot of rubbish. they were like complaining about the lightsticks... then weijin kept saying we jus now v paiseh. then somehow we jus set up this sia suay group thing, then i say weijin is the president, but she keep pushing to cream. i duno why also. v luan. haha. then weijin say 800plus ppl in the audi see us sia suay, then cream say, no larr, dun have 800plus... 700 plus nia. wth! hahaha... then i keep saying i wan to go toilet. lols. after tt cream went to stand behind the wall, then they asked her what she doing, weijin say she wan to go toilet? haha i also duno what happen la. v blur. lols.

then we talk about the lightstick... they say mus complain to the uncle that sell the lightstick or smth. cuz cannot light up. then they compare to the security der stick. then i say, i think the uncle will tell you you should go ying zheng to be traffic police. haha. talk alot of rubbish lars. then after awhile we went inside to sit cuz v sian...

after awhile weijin ask us go backstage there... then i say i dun wan cuz i lazy. so she went alone to find xzel and meiyi, i stayed to chui aircon... then i told the others what happened before the concert. i say we went to backstage to go toilet, then i go there ask to eat curry puff. then they laugh at me! wahlau. haha. then they say no wonder u from sia suay group one. wahlau, i never lorh! hahaha... wo shi yuan wang der....

and oh yeah, cream keep saying me about the mlb shirt thingy. cuz the day before on blog i said maybe those who got the shirt can wear, those who dun have wear white. then i w try to bring. then she ask me why i never bring. then today i went to see the publicity blog hor, i realise tt quizzy post on the blog say as i suggested, can wear white... then in the end i never wear. aiyo, malu. haha... aiya, cuz i got no time to change also, bring also no use lorh....

waited damn long ah. until 1130 lidat. then weijin they all come back, then tell us that mlb left liaoo. say they talk to them for awhile, but there no recept so never call us. sian lohhs... say they told mlb tt we were at e other side, bt they had to carry their instruments so cldnt come find us. yepppps... sian, never got the chance to pass nic tt piece of paper. think mus wait until nxt gig lers. may should have gig, hope w have chance to give him.

ya larrs. then after that we left.... flora they all go carpark drive car... then we mo ming qi miao blindly follow them also, until someone went like, why are you all following us ah? then we abit oh ya hor? haha... so ya we went in e opp direction. wanted go take mrt cuz weijin and meiyi got no money. but cuz v late lerr, then by the time we get there w miss the las train... so in the end we stand at the roadside and hail for cab. meiyi and weijin shared cab while me and xzel each took one cab... then we were like tryin to hail all the cabs and ask how much was the midnight charge at tt time. haha. then i realised that comfort cab is 5% while transcab was 10%! i always thot comfort was more x sia.

yeahh bt the time i got back home was uber late liao larrs. ate noodles, then fall asleep on sofa. sleep all e way until 10am plus in the morning, then shifted to room to sleep until 1 plus. haha. in e end never go see shawn... cuz lazy, then maggy and xe not free also. ya loh...

damn sian, never get to talk to nic. abit heart pain my money ah, altgt spend like 40plus bucks on tis whole thing. [tic plus cab fare etc] sibei x. then nic still pangseh me lidat. hahaha... nahh, not his fault la. anyway i think we see each other too many times they also dun have the yi yuan to see me liao. haha!but still lookin forward to the nxt gig lohhs.

tank coming tis thurs! sighhs. im damn poor. i jus spent $145 of my angpao lui today buyin a 80gb external harddisk so that i can trans all my stuff in my stupid comp then go format the comp. but anywayys. goin for almost all of tank's events i think. except for the sunday imm one bahh. duno the monday one gg not... sunday gotta choose betwn tank[imm], pinchao[bugis] and sam[mdc]. most likely will be mdc bahhs. but if sam side end early i may go down see pinchao or smth. duno leh, see first bahh...think sat chasing tank with yilin they all.... yupps...

jus watched qin's yin yue ai qing gu shi. v the wth leh! haha. cuz the fir story is talk about qin thot faye like laoshi more and stuff. but in the end faye also got like qin wad. duno la. then the qin one starting got alot of hua mian from the fir story, about all the stuff tt happen to him and faye in the past. but now he shi lian liaoos... so got tis new girl... i dun like la, haha. i only want my faye jie!! but really the photo of him and faye damn sweet. but in the end cuz he shi lian then he deleted the photo away. sighhs. but i really feel like scolding him after i watch. haha. how can lidat jiu dun wan my faye jie! mus ji li zheng qu, chase her back wad! aiyo...

tml holiday! yayys. can stay home sleep. haha. gotta do tank board... maybe do pinchao board also. but i dun have his photo... sians. tml mus watch repeat of wanyu... today got qin... hahaas. think got the part 2 of yin yue ai qing gu shi. but anws, today he went to pk the bball machine! his score was like 218. not bad ah, kor. haha. but unexpectedly jr won him siaa. aiyo... then he still saying how good he was and stuff. hahaa...

kor say his xuan chuan for overseas will begin in may. first will be hk, then sg and msia etc. yeahhs. hope he come in june. then at least not so sian. go kor! jiayou! i miss korr. haha. tt time laoshi got promise he w come w kor if got xuan chuan... duno true not lorh. haha. ask jie to come also leh. lols. i miss kor jie and laoshi alot!!!

jus now watch pi li jiao wa. got flh.. damn funny ah that yan ya lun! aiyo,that ahbu... haha. ahbu and dadong really cannot cook siaa... do until luan qi ba zao. but in the end come out like quite delicious. lol. i think its the same dish i ate ytd lah. =.= it looked the same at least. haha. then chun and calvin supposedly the better team... but i think the fish problem bah, come out not nice... so in the end they were placed at lower ranking than dadong n ahbu. hahaas...

got time go dl fir an fa xian chang. sure damn funny. hahaas...

had fun in class today. haha. cuz the chinese girls went for their prelims. then left like 14 of us in class. during cme we were talking about ghost stories. haha. then had maths, we went thru trigo ws... and i realised i totally forget how to do trigo liaos... sighhs. after tt was chinese which i almost fell asleep. then bio, mrs tan didnt come in to teach so we were sitting on the floor telling ghost stories. then kana scold by ms lim. =.=

recess went to lib use comp, uploaded the videos and photos and posted on blog. blogged on wretch blog also... after recess was lit... ms jeya asked me go take her laptop... so went staff rm, then mr wong was like, yes, what do you want? then i say i was supp to take her laptop. so he asked me take the bag and 'feel' if the laptop was inside. then i went, how i know?! he say can feel the weight wad. i was like, dorts, there can be other stuff inside right?! diaoo. then in e end i brought the whole bag back to class loh.

ms jeya came in... then cuz majority of class not here... so we crapped! haha. the queen wanted to revise macbeth with us, which we refused. haha. chuwen they all say we mus bond... then she say, ya, bond with macbeth... haha. then in the end we ended up telling ghost stories lorh. jiawei's ghost story again. which i hear 3 times liao. from scary hear until not scary. haha... then we spent the rest of the lesson talking rubbish. yepps :D

aft sch had remedial... after remedial went to library to use comp. went on blog, chatted with the people there. some people ahhs... dorts lah. haha. i really din remember she got tell me leh, then she say i old liao cannot remember. diaoos! i think im younger than you leh. =.=

ahh whateverrs. oh yes, something happened when i got home today. was sitting downstairs sian-ing cuz was waiting for my dad to finish dinner and go ask the comp shop uncle about the external harddisk. so i was sitting there and trying to view mlb blog w my stupid phone. then horr, suddenly my mum said smth, so i looked up and turned back. wth, hui ge was standing there and doing duno what. [the hui ge from jteam, liang jia ban] i totally -_-" him lah. then he like stare... then he say he staring at the she pic on my epop on the table. diaoos. lame. kinda random hor. haha!

alot of ppl havin mye now. im quite free. haha, tis week only one test! yayys. nxt week got chem spa, bio test and emaths as far as i can rmb. ahh wells. look forward to tank tis weekend first bahhs. thursday tank hci sch concert! yeahhs~ :)

for the audio and photos of the Chorus of Dreams: A music extravaganza, please head towards mlb blog, the post by sam that says 'Good Morning'. look for the longest tag there, which should be by me. its there! yepps :DD

...this post damn long leh. haha :D