am DAMN FED UP. VERY FED UP. FREAKING IRRITATED!!!!

arghhhhs....i just wanna say. WHAT THE F LAHHH!!!!

DAMN IT. i feel so freaking not shuang now. and i totally like. wanna cry liaoos. i want to like bang wall and die lorhs. GRR. some people freaking buay hiao bai....

okayys. i shall start from what WAS happy.

23September2006, SATURDAY

YELLOW RIBBON EVENT + SUPERBAND COMPILATION AUTO SESS

was supposed to meet sheena at 815. but i left house at 815, so i was like late for 10 min. hahaha. and the thing is, before i left house, shihui smsed me to tell me tt ellekay reached already. then i was like, HUH, I HAVENT EVEN STEP OUT OF HOUSE. hahahaha...meeting time was 9, but we told ellekay it was 730 cos we were like pretty sure she wld be late lah. hahaha

reached orchard at ard 9... then saw ellekay's sms tt milubing reached e place already. so me and sheena like ran all e way to civic plaza lahh. then when we reached, din see ellekay and shihui... but milubing began their sound check blah blah blah already. so we stood there to watch...then soon ellekay and shihui came lahhs. so yeppx. hahaha

then while they were checking e stuff blah... nic waved to us... then say he very hot... hahahaha.... sweating like crazy lah. LOL. hmmms. then they finished e thing... sam and wq came down, but nic was still doing stuff on stage lah. so i waited. and waited. and WAITED. haha. cos he was like chatting w this person lah can... diaooooos

then nic finally came off stage! asked him to come over. then we chatted for awhile loh. asked him where they gg after tt, he say duno... then asked him izit he change guitar, he say what...borrow from his dad derrs. then i thot he say the guitar borrow from his dad. HAHA. but actually is he borrow MONEY from his dad to buy guitar lah. yeppx. hahaha

asked him about fir event. everything unconfirmed... wear what not confirm,sing what also not confirm. then he say they gonna sing a fir song. i was like...REVOLUTION! then he say revolution cannot change e music arrangement... then ask him to say he say SECRET cannot say. dao shi jiu noe ler. like abit wth.... hahahaha! :)

then...what always happened, happened AGAIN. LOL. cos i asked why he change guitar or smth. duno lahhs. then he say cos album nid good guitar... then i huh? then he say COS ALBUM NID GOOD GUITAR!!!!! like practically shouting liaoos.... hahahas. paiseh lahh. im like half deaf der.LOL

hmmms...then asked if they gg back mdc after tt. then he say no cos got far east event...then asked him if after far east event got go back, he say shud be have. but he gotta rush off cos got bbq. then i was totally.... ARGHH. WHY MUST YOU TELL ME LAH! then he say cos dun wan u all to waste time there mahhs.... ahh. so nice lah him. hahahaha.

yeahhs then they left... after tt we went to walk walk... then eventually we found a bench outside mos burger. so like 5 of us sat there and chat...until the security guard came to gan us... LOL. then at 10 went back to e civic plaza.

saw milubing at left side of stage... so we went to stand somewhere ard there lah.then after tt they moved to e other side...we stayed at e left side lorhhs. then they sang the yellow ribbon song... w benny shifu.... then they interviewed nic and shifu about yellow ribbon lorhs. hmm yeahhs.

another thing... during sound check... cos nic checking guitar sound or smth. then weiqi like look DAMN BORED lahh.... HAHA. super funny lahhs. he jus got that "my one okay liaoo... why take so long der?" type of look.... LOLs!!

after the yellow ribbon song... they went backstage. took photos w alot of ppl.... all e gongzuorenyuan... then we stood outside and waited. then sam like damn funny... point here point there... then say what call us go eat... blah blah blahhs. duno what he talking. hahaas.then they came out... we managed to take a photo w them. hahas. thanks to their i duno who.... i think is wendy? haha THANKS! :D

then they ran away. hahahaa. they went to left side of stage. nic and shifu were interviewed... and speaking to some i duno who lah. we were like sitting outside doing nothing. hahahas.... picnic-ing. lols. then like super funny....

they finished their interview thingy already. nic went to i duno where... then shifu suddenly walked towards us and talked to us! i was like abit shock diooo.... LOL. then he say he see us in photo before. then ask us for our names. then we say our names... he say he see us on blog before. hahaas... then he say what... "im fat boy... in animal kingdom im fat pig..." he damn nice lah. so friendly! SHIFU ROCKS......! hahahas :)

and then i saw JOCELYN. like abit~ hahahas... she accused me of not studying lah. then i was like. ABIT YOU ALSO HOH. hahahas.... abit the stage so big. very hard to find meh?! LOLs....

uhhuhhs. and then we saw weiqi walking here and there. hahahas. after tt the 2nd part of performance started... at 11... went to e right side of stage lahhs. hahaas. stood at e side... saw amanda, karin, yanwen, zan, yanqing, nic's dad etc.... then they sang xi huan ni and guo huo! sam's intro was like uber funny....

"the nxt song we're going to sing is entitled CROSSFIRE, guo huo."

then we like. HUH. crossfire?? abit.... hahahahas....

but okayys. the songs were DAMN NICE OKAYY. yayys. MILUBING ROCKS!!!! and horhs, i wanna mention tt nic sing the yellow ribbon song until like damn nice. awws. hahaa! really!!!

hmm then we went to wait for them to come out. but they v fast jiu walk away lerrs. nic and wq like din even know lahs. only sam kept waving to us...then until we shouted BYE NIC, BYE WEIQI! then they turned and waved.... lols... after tt they like walk towards the taka building lahhs. we followed... then found them waiting for lift... hahaas

sam like uber hao xiaoo der siaa. he take his phone and act like he wanna throw his phone... so tt the glass door will break... like abit wth. then duno what he trying to say lah.... we were like separated by this glass door...and the stupidest thing is that. we cld actually open the glass door lah hoh? DIAOO.
then sam showed us his shirt... got the words milubing derrs... then we screamed...duno scream what lah. hahahaas.....

then they went into e lift.... nic was quite happy… hahahas.... sam and weiqi also damn funny... initially when sam kept gesturing to us, weiqi was like beside him... then weiqi kept laughing lah. LOL! then after they got into e lift, nic's dad waved to us also... hahaha.... so friendly. :D

hmm after tt we went to macs to eat.... drank milo.... break record liaoos. din eat anything today. the only thing i had was tt cup of medium milo from macs. haha. crapped this whole load of rubbish at macs lah. then we talked about ELLEKAY and ANDY again.... HAHAHAHA.....

after eating, went off to far east... went to queue up lohhs. then me and shihui tried to go find where their bus wld be parked at. and we actually like found the correct staircase. miraculous.... HAHA.....
then we went back to queue lorhs. chatted... biru was like infront of us... hahaas. then we like damn siao derrs! when we first reached e place, they were playing yongqi... then we all sang dao damn loud... like everyone were staring at us can. abit... haha

we uber enthu.... all songs we also sing... hahahaa.... then the hoyu person came to ask us to do survey blah blah blah. the product not bad sia! HAHA. spray liao hair v soft... NICE... hahahas.... then got what lucky draw thingy. all of us got the wrist pouch lohs. lol....

then at like 2... saw j3 and lucify... but think milubing in backstage nv come out. after awhile event started... host was lingzhi. then like abit... whatever lingzhi and superbands say... nobody interested to listen lah. everyone like jus scream scream scream... lols...

when milubing came out... screamed like crazy lahhs. hahahas... then waved... nic got wave back... lols... ohh yahhs. before the event started horh, this person... came to like take photo of us lorhs. she asked biru they all... then biru they all say we also milubing derrs. so all of us took a grp photo... according to tt person, is for music company der... aiya whatever lah.

hmm.then began the auto sess. queued... then like super funny lah! hahahas.... hmms. went on stage, then first was lucify. the others i heck care lah. then misaki looked at me... i waved and say hi... hahaas. then come to j3, jacky was singing ling... cos the bg music playing mantou der ling. lols... not bad sehhs. haha

after tt was soul... HAHAHA. think order was awi, justis, andy, alfred, ishi.... then when ellekay reached andy...


andy: 我們很有緣hoh?
ellekay: ...... =.=
*all of us start laughing*
me: orh hoh... ellekay 你完了....!哈哈!
justis: huh...為什麼會完了??
me: *din hear* huhh?
justis: 為什麼會完了??
minhui: 她的形象被破壞了....
me: erhh. YAH. 有人的形象被破壞了....*points to ellekay*哈哈!


abit damn funny lah! hahaas.... story long long. wan to know, go find ellekay. HAHA

ishi v cute lah. hahaha


me: HELLO ishi!
ishi: hello.... *signing for ellekay*
me: i got bring electric fan leh.
ishi: urh. orhh...
*time to sign my lyric bk... stood infront of him...*
ishi: *stare at me*
me: erhh...hello.做什麼? *cos he keep staring at me*
ishi: 做什麼?
me: erhh. forget it. i got bring electric fan hoh.
ishi: orh okayys....


hahahaha... abit funny lah him. he forget about e electric fan thingy lerrs. so long ago! hahaa....

then come to milubing.... i think i freaking dui bu qi sam and weiqi leh. SORRY!!! cos i was like standing infront of weiqi... then i v ganchiong wan ask nic if he gg back mdc. so i stand infront of weiqi and shouted to nic.... arghs. like so bad to wq leh. sorry sorry!!!


me: 等一下有回去嗎?
him: yah i going back... but i may be going from back door... cos got ppl picking me up...
me: huh. BACK DOOR?
him: yahhs....
me: *duno if i shud gv him e letter at tt time. cos scared lost....* erhhs. then 這個怎麼辦?我等一下再給你啦 *turns away to go off stage*
him: but i may be going from back door leh.
me: erhhs. forget it. *turns back and gives him e letter* AIYAH,給你啦!!!! *got the damn irritated look*
him: SORRY SORRY!
me: forget it.... *goes off stage*


after i went off stage he still shouting duno what to me lah. din hear... i was like. HUH? then e security ask us go away... so bo bian lorhhs. haiis....

then after tt we went to find their bus. and we found it lah. but the driver wasnt there...so we stood there and waited lorhs. sang alot... hahaas. hmm then waited for quite long lah. after tt the driver came, and drove e bus to e side. e staircase tt me and shihui found initially. haha. then we waited for them....

after awhile, SAM came... first one siaa. hahaas. then was like what... lucify and whatever lah. who cares. then sam came to e front of e bus. we asked him where wq was. then he pointed to his heart. like abit!!! DUHH. so diaoooos. "weiqi is in my heart" abit... haha. then he duno tk e yellow ribbon do what....

then nic and wq finally came! like phewws. i damn scared nic like ownself run away or smth. hahas. then i wrote on white board... asked nic to go find my letter and read... then he say okayys. cos e letter was in e black plastic bag where they put all e presents lah. hmm yepp.then i was trying to ask him about mdc. then he kept telling me tt e letter in e bag. like diaoo! haha

their bus went off... we RAN to get a cab lah. like wth! i run dao my pants gonna drop can... hahaas... i was like.. "等一下leh!!我褲子要掉了leh!" shouted damn loud. gosh. so paiseh! hahaa. then we like finally got a cab... split 2 cabs... me shihui and minhui, then sheena ellekay and lorita. sheena tt cab took e same route as e superband bus... so they like caught up w them...but we took a diff route loh. sian diaoos

when we reached mdc... the bus jus reached also. but this time they drive until inside then let them alight. bit sian lah. then we walked to recept. waited lorhs... then lucify came out.... then milubing was like sitting at e chairs behind the recept counter. uber funny lah! hahaa.. thn cos got mirror. then sam was waving to us thru e mirror. DIAOO. i think sam's like uber free. hahaa..

then i was telling nic... i thot u say u nida go off? then he say cos got interview... then what interview he also duno.... hmms yepps. then he say after e interview he nida go off liaoos. yeahh then they went in again. asked if they wld come out... sam said i think so.... so we waited... waited for quite long lorhhs.... uber hungry sehhs

until like 6, they finally came out.... then they wanted to go downstairs derr.but they say soul downstairs... so in e end we stayed at recept. then nic like kept wanting to stand at e aircon...cos v hot. then after tt we like. NIC, AIRCON NOT ON LAH! then he huhhh.... then walked over to ANOTHER aircon. diaooos! haha

then nic shouted to sam and wq... BRO, AIRCON IS HERE LEH. TT AIRCON SPOIL! i was like. huh. hello?! tt aircon is NEVER ON. NOT SPOIL. wahlau erh! hahahaas.... then alot of people kept asking him tk photo, sign stuff etc. then i asked if he read my letter. then we began this long discussion about their album etc.... and he STILL refused to reveal the fir song lah! grrr. haha

then got him to sign my book... my LAST THREE PAGES in my ru guo ai book! YAY. i finally finished tt book lerr! hahaha... he wrote....

"Mei Kian... :P Thankz for today! *bleah* "

then i was like. 我要吐血了....then he still got seh smile at me lah. hahahaha.... then me and biru kept complaining tt we wanted to sleep. hahaha. i was saying tt i can like stand there and fall asleep lorhs. LOL. then i kept pai-ing him... duno why also lah. haha. then i damn bo liao lah. go pai his shoes. hahaas...

stayed w him for v long... then chatted lorhs.... talked alot of rubbish. then i was like introducing people to him. hahaha. he damn STM siaa! buay tahan. hahaa.... like 10 secs ago i jus told him shihui's name.... then after tt he was like, what's ur name ah? i can FAINT lorh. hahaha. he still duno M.E.S.S lah. sian diaos. hahaa... i hint him liao he still duno. he say he dun dare to tikam... cos scared say wrong... haha

then i asked him... give me 3 things u want for ur bdae... he say "im perfectly contented with what i have". i say i duno what to give him...then in e end i showed him my tt hp chain... then i say, i give u this one for ur bdae okay? then he say dun wan...cos he dun like to hang stuff, then if give him he nv use jiu v wasted. but i say "then 我的電話掛你的名作什麼?" then he say.... "orh. then give me lorh." like abit... hahaa... then he say 7oct then give him, bt i say scared dao shi cannot communicate. yepp

and by the way. i want to say. ITS THE THIRD TIME YOU'RE TELLING ME UR BDAE OKAY! abit!!! hahaa.... he say like 3 times ler lah! YES, i know EIGHT OCTOBER IS YOUR BIRTHDAY. dont have to keep reminding me!!!! diaoo.hahaha. hen fan leh! everytime mention dao fir he'll start saying tt the nxt day is his bdae. abit...

then cos he busy signing for other people... then i was like... i come find u later horhs. then i go find weiqi... haha. told him about the "on the bus" article. then took photo and signed... then he damn funny... kept writing "tonight". then he wrote "thx for coming tonight" on my book, then added "(it's night time already!)" but when he signing for e nxt person jiu like po gong... he was like "ARGH. i keep writing tonight!" then i was like. "所以你的tonight是凹出來的啦?" hahaha.... forget it if u guys dun understand. cant be bothered to explain. haha

then went to find sam. asked shihui to help me ask sam to sign. he wrote damn short... but aiyahs... cos no time lerrs.... then took photo of him.... yepppx....

after sam... i went back to look for nic. then i was telling ellekay and sheena... "ITS THE THIRD TIME ALREADY".... then he still turn and ask me "what 3rd time?" thn i say "you tell me ur bdae for the THIRD TIME already!" hahaha....

then nic like damn sian.... he kept giving a sian look.... i was like... "你不要這樣sian leh.我會很怕你的leh.已經有人跟我講他們很怕你了...." then he like, huh why... then i say how i know? haha. then i was very scared.... cos he like very sian....

and then... he sign some people der book... then he suddenly like give a damn not shuang look. Like no expression type… thn say "我真的要走了." then he walked out of recept. Everyone shock dio… thn nobody dared to follow... then i like still buay hiao bai lah. i ran after him to give him the hp chain... then he say he made his friend wait v long... from 430 to almost 7....

on e way downstairs... i kept saying sorry to him... then he was explaining to me... saying tt... they're trying to be selfless, they dont regard themselves as idols.... and some stuff.... he was like super serious and stuff... all i cld do was keep saying sorry... i feel like such an useless idiot. arghh. then he was like super not shuang and stuff. he kept explaining to me... haiis.

Then he was like so sad and irritated that… when we walked downstairs, sam like abit block dao our way lah. Then he just like squeezed past without saying anything. Then walked v fast to the car…

我要跟你說.... 你跟我講的,我都明白...真的!

after tt... followed them to the car... at this moment his mood was still okayy... just very affected and sad.... cos he made his friends wait like really long.... when he got into the car, i asked him to cheer up... then he still got the mood to tell me.... "ask everyone go read blog tonight. i'll blog about it"

then weiqi like still kana stuck at i duno where. sam and nic in e car lerrs. then caixia they all stand at e side of e car talking to sam... then weiqi wanna get on e car. but they dun wanna shift away. weiqi was like... "他們不要給我上車leh..." then we still laughed lahhs. i kept asking caixia they all to shift... cos weiqi wanted to board e car... but they say deng yi xia..then after tt, nic and sam got off e car. then sam was like, 我們....要唱歌! then we like HUH....

they walked to the taxi stand there... then peg they all wanted to like celebrate bdae for them. some people freaking buay hiao bai. i duno what to say already. then they asked 3 of them to turn while they prepared e stuff. i was standing behind lah. so when they turned they were facing us.... then some people still got the face to go ask them take photos?!

sam and wq were qt okayy w taking photos... still like v happy and stuff... but i see nic like v bu dui jin already.... he kept looking down... and he looked damn sad.... then i was like super scared lah. he din want to look at anyone lorhs... jus kept staring at e ground. then after that they turned.... then nic suddenly turned around and walked away.

Nic cried… his eyes were like damn red lah.. we din know what to do…. when he walked away.... then we were like shocked... din know what to do lah. then i say dun go disturb him... then sam say cos hes paiseh tt he made his frens wait so long. so he v sad...then i say dun go disturb him, then sam nodded also... haiis. kept saying sorry to sam... then he say not our fault, cos we waited v long for them also... but really. i have to say sorry....

then after tt nic walked back, then he still looked damn sad lah. typed a msg for him... then he dun wan see... he say its okay... then they still like ask them sign board and blah blah blah. i was totally WTF at tt time lorh. then our gang went to say sorry to their friend.... then she said its okay... but we really felt bad for tt....haiis. 對不起!!!

when they all were leaving... nic was still super sad.... i typed a msg for him to see.... "like u always say... SMILEZ! Okay?" and smth else. dont rmb what. yeahhs... then asked him to cheer up... before tt, when he just left recept... i alr kept asking him to cheer up lerrs... pls pls CHEER UP OKAYY? NIC LEE! cheer up hohh.... dont make us sad too.... :(

then they left.... on e way out.... all of us and biru they all... we were like cursing those people lah. i mean like. hello?! people already gan shi jian for so long lerrs. i mean like, whatever they did, could be done in reception, while they were signing for us etc. nic was really angry lerrs...

NICODEMUS LEE. i rather you scold me okay! i say before liao lah!!!! 不喜歡的話要講....then he like keep everything to himself and this is what happens. arghs... i rather u scold me lorh. then i wont feel so bad. i rather you 發火....

I don’t deny that what happened was partly our fault too… but I’ll still think that they have a bigger part to play in this. I mean like, they were originally leaving already… then was like quite okay. But they like made them stay for awhile more, then it made all of us so sad… haiis.

okayy. actually nic said tt he gan shi jian already.... but everyone just didnt want to let him go... he kept saying tt he made his friends wait really long... i understand! i really do lah. but.... as he said... obligations... cos alot of those people who mobbed him today... were not mlb fans... jus some other people lorh. then he cant possibly say no to them...

偶像也有發脾氣的權利...

like hello lah. this is NIC. the super lame nic lorh. [haha] the nic tt always jokes w us and stuff. can POWER until make him cry? i duno what to say already lorh. i stand there i also want to cry liaoo.... he was like quite happy when he left far east lah! cos i think he qt looking forward to his bbq or smth. duno him lah.

i think his mood totally spoil ler lorhs... our mood also lah. haiis....

CAN SOMEONE SCOLD ME!

arghhhh!!!! i feel super bad. NIC!!! SORRY!!!!! i want to like. scream lah! arghhhs!

ohh by the way. nic changed guitar already. :( changed to a red one... wont be using the old one unless necessary i think. yeppx. :D

迷路兵,對不起!!!!!!

i want to bang wall and die lorh.

haiis... i feel so sad now.

can make an idol cry infront of fans... first time? i duno. forget it.

NIC, CHEER UP PLEASE!!! you make me feel super sad. :( will forever be your loyal fan okayys! anything dont like just say.... yeppx.....

wtf lah. some people. grrr. then this morning when chatting w nic... he still tell me tt those people he nv see b4 derrs. then i damn lame... he say... those people... seldom see them horh. etc... then i was like, what's my name? then he diaoo me, then say meikian... hahaa...

i like the happy nic.

and i am SAD. :(

你快樂所以我快樂! SMILEZ!

and i wanna tell those people lorh. 不要太囂張.不要以為你們很厲害. 因為你們完全沒有任何位置!

ARGH.

記得我們10月7日的約定! :)

-update at 9:12am, SUNDAY-

Nic blogged last night.... some extracts from his post.

"Maybe i am just like any other art person...(musicians)..being superbly sensitive and in tuned to mi emotions.. that explains why ba.. Maybe i am just not good at hiding my emotions too transparent..can see when i'm happy or sad..can't realli hide or act.. i can't smile when i can't..."

我知道! he cant hide his emotions.... but he cant like... really say no to people either. duno how to phrase it lah. jus like... ytd i saw him getting more and more sian... and not shuang... but he just didnt firmly SAY out tt he needed to leave already, cos so many people were asking him for photos/autographs...

Don’t smile when you cant! Then we’ll know whats wrong mah. If not we’ll never know. =.=

"gotta noe that some ppl are so afraid of mi...maybe itz becoz of this musical-eccentric side...realli sorry.. I am truly not angry nor upset with you guys... but more of myself becoz i was trapped in between.... just imagine...u wanna make everybody happy...but u can't...u see people so happy just to see you..yet you gotta leave them with an unsigned book or untaken photo..."

NIC! i regret telling you that.... i hope it didnt affect your mood... and dont be angry or upset with yourself! its not your fault either! its just like... 無奈接受 type of thing? its part of being a public figure... its hard to make everyone happy. you cant satisfy everyone.... and we're not afraid of you okay? 你們也是人, so definitely have ur emotions and stuff... after all, u're just another person right? just another human...


"Felt the sincerity in you all...i'm so sorry..

Love,
Nic"


can stop saying sorry? =.= arghhs. bet he took really long thinking about how to blog this. we feel the sincerity in you guys too! 可以不要對我們那麼好嗎?我們受不起... i rather you zhi jie reject me... [auto/photos] then i wont feel so bad...

haiis.

didnt sleep last night. that incident was on my mind for the entire night... tossed and turned in bed, cldnt sleep at all... cld think of nothing but THAT incident. really affected my mood lah. am the type tt can be easily affected by others. seeing other people sad makes me sad too... haiis!

we all heartbreak lahh. sounds stupid actually. cuz we're not even in any way related to them? yet get so affected and upset... just fans yahh... hmm.but perhaps the reason i was sad was because i sort of understand his feelings... like, making people wait so freaking long and stuff. if is me i also will paiseh lorhs...

time to put down everything... time to study hard... exams begin on wednesday... 是時候收拾心情,努力讀書了...

-Dont forget our date on 7OCT!-

after all, u're still the NIC we used to know! :)

im starving. -_-“ but don’t feel like eating anything… was so fed up ytd tt I didn’t eat anything after I got home. Only had like a bowl of noodles at 1230am. Arghhhs.

Anywayys. THANK YOU WEIQI AND SAM. For trying to lighten up the mood so everyone wont be so affected and all… weiqi like damn gao xiao lah.. hahaha… :D thanks…appreciate it! Haha.


-finished updating at 9:24am, SUNDAY-