last friday was very fun! whooos! hahaaa. okayy maybe it wasnt that fun. but i really enjoyed the performance. really! omgosh, halfestride and clara chua's performance really impressed me. and so did our very own MILUBING. oh gosh, the performance was superb. loved the 2nd song they sang...

想你是临睡的习惯

寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人守着
冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单

想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风
故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样

不懂我的爱在你生命中
占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚

I will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样
让爱情不由自主
陷入一场 两败俱伤的战

I will never try to break your heart
我真的不想
再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单

goshh.. i think this song was so so so sad. i cried every single time i listened to it over the weekend. which is like 20-30 times. its really good. i love this song loads loads loads.

sighhs, i'll post more on wed. lib closing lerrrs. takecare all!









this is something i wrote some time back... depicts a relationship i had with someone. nope, not a love story, but i'll leave it to you to understand what it's about. even till now, i can strongly feel the emotions i had while doing this composition. have you ever had the feeling... great disappointment in something/someone, but you cant get angry with anyone cuz deep inside, you know it's not anyone's fault. the greater the belief, the greater the disappointment. the helpless times... a fragile side of me, perhaps to show that i'm not that strong after all.

an unpolished set of lyrics... definitely, there're stuff i can still improve on. but i'll leave it as it is for the time being, it being the most true words and emotions i want to express. there's no tune to this, but i'll try to work on it if i have the time.

trying to forget, but subconsciously remembering...

忘記

承受過的痛
或許你永遠不會懂
曾受過的傷
也了解不是你的錯

不想失去你
也不想放棄你
因為我相信
我們始終有約定

每一次都默默忍受
心中的那種痛
知道不是誰的錯
只是想忘記 忘記那曾經發生過

表面似堅強的我
也曾會有脆弱的時候
以微笑帶過
卻不代表就能忘記 忘記這一切發生過

now in library while the rest of the class is havin amaths test. hahahas...

hmmms... jus to update... posted a few posts on my wretch blog these few days. and some pics too. interested can go there and take a look bahhs. took photos of some stuff i bought recently... YUZHE'S COLOR MAG, some yuzhe stuff, evan's gaiban album etc. yepppx...

later going shifu's house to fix my guitar strings, which broke last sat... rahhs. damn suay. was supposed to meet peg to prac on sunday, then my first string broke on sat. sighhs.

duno why but i prefer posting in chinese nowadays. hmms.

so yeahhs. for updates please look at my wretch blog yeah? and comment if you can! :) gladly appreciated. :DDDD

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/estherzax

oh yes. i figured i should change my blog music already... so yepp its changed to S.H.E's 魔力. i really like this song! feels kinda touched and stuff everytime i listen to it. hope everyone will like it too. :)

[i hope it works by the time this post shows]

currently in S.H.E craze for i duno what reason... haha i jus spent my night 2 days ago digging out all my S.H.E cds and lookin thru them. im only missing like 3 of their albums i think. yeahh looking forward to the launch of PLAY this may! S.H.E totally ROCKS :DD

lyrics to 魔力!

I have you to be with
Everything will be easy
晒的阳光 淋的雨滴
都值得回忆

I have you to be with
才懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应 绝不断讯
会如影随行

曾灰心以为 我来错了世界
太多想法很另类 找不到人了解
当我说的感觉 牵动著你的脸
互动的泪 让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力
想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛 把不如意
都变成流星

你是我的魔力
心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁 复制甜蜜
笑容不结冰

幸福是间电影院
没有单人的座位
要肩碰肩
才能看好戏上演

just spent 1 1/2 hours sitting here trying to dl all sorts of flh videos. hahas cuz i find yalun's voice v nice~ LOLS. yepps whateverrs...

anywayys, updated my wretch blog!! do visit :)

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/estherzax

its a really really really long post. but bear with me lah. hahas. and its in chinese~ yeppps. posted up some photos too. some stuff i bought recently. finally got kor's album! :) :)

some stuff i posted on my wretch blog...

今天又看了一遍禹哲在家族的問答題, 覺得他說得很對. 以下是禹哲自己回復的答案.

-唐禹哲- 最怕?
人心 因為你永遠不知道人家的笑臉背後在想什麼 人心險惡比世界末日還恐怖

還有, 下載了飛輪海的一個短片... 亞綸在裡面落淚了, 我也很被他的話感動... 每天都在身旁, 我們卻不曾珍惜的東西, 到底有多少? 我很怕... 很怕他們離開我的那一天到來. 我不想失去這一切, 但這天總是會到來的. 曾經歷過生命中重要人物的離去, 記得當時我完全沒有感覺. 直到一陣子後, 發現這一切不可能再恢復以前的樣子, 離開的, 就不會再回來了. 猛然發現的事實, 讓我不知所措. 當時, 我真的哭了. 真的好難過, 這種感受我很怕承受...

亞綸:
要珍惜身旁關心你的人, 因為社會那麼多人, 不可能每個人都對你是真心的, 但家人永遠對你是真心的.

最近, 有一位好久不見的同學, 讓我感受到了生命中的愛... 沉思了那麼久, 怎麼也沒想到, 原來愛, 就那麼簡單.
some kinda of preview lah hahas... okayys. tts all! :D

TANK's coming on 4may! :D