i think i sound really pissed on the tagboard reply. ahh whatever. i dont mean to be pissed. im just in a bad mood that's all. what with all the homework not done, still being sick and all. just fan-ed....

it's weird how such trivial matters affect me so much. every single time it happens, i dwell on it for like at least three days. trivial to others perhaps, but really important and all for me.

i really dont blame them for not coming out or whatever. really. i mean like, how on earth are they supposed to know we were there? im just pissed at myself for not arriving earlier and all. its not their fault. but really, i was sick! so cant really blame me for trying to blame the whole world on it right? even yesterday... after waiting for them i came home sneezing like crazy. until yesterday morning i had this bad flu plus cough and wasnt even able to go to school. please understand, this isnt enjoyable.

and the reason why im pissed isnt even because of them. its because of someone i totally hate! and that person... she brings bad luck to us can? everytime see her definitely bad things will happen. arghhs. damn her. I HATE HER OKAY! the people who were with us on thurs will know who... shes a freaking idiot lah. GRR

sam blogged... random post lah him... =.= commented... hope they'll read the comments and at least know that we were there. the last milo box yet to be given to them... wonder if there'll be a chance soon...

mlb isnt my whoever. just my idol, so i dont have the right to blame them for anything. after all... who knows if they'll remember? a month from now.... life will be different. even if they dont remember, we have no choice but to let go already.

knowing i should let go, but reluctant to....

exams are coming.... in two month's time. time to work hard....

really think of quitting school after sec. so pointless when im failing almost every test. haiis. any magic formula to pass tests? just a pass will do... dont even have to care about passing with "flying colours" already. worried about maths... duno how im going to survive failing maths...

in conclusion... no, not blaming them. just irritated with myself. yepp.