或許,即使做了那麼多,我在你心里始終是微不足道的
不知道該怎麼想...這種感覺很難形容吧
是否該在受傷害之前放棄?
但我卻無法忘記你的好...
我... 絕望了.


17 Oct 2006, Tuesday - Death Note Preview

met sheena at ard 5 plus... then took 855 down to harbourfront to meet shihui and ellekay. these 2 ahhx... tried to cheat us by saying they saw milubing lohx. i din zhong ji though. hahaha... get cheated too many times liao. LOLS. anws, they didnt see milubing laa, they saw yanwen. hahaa... then say what, yanwen know mess oso or smth. duno them laax.

anyways. went down to vivocity GV. went to claim my tics and premiums, then me and shihui went into the cinema... asked ellekay and sheena to try kope tics cuz sure got people nv come claim derx. then like 5 minutes into the show, they got tics also... haha so all four of us got to watch! yayys. lolx...

then we were like laughing throughout the whole show. so diaoos~! haha. sheena said LIGHT looked like ninja turtle. like wth. then L was SO CUTE LORHX! :) yayyx... i love L laa. hahaax. okayy laa, Light quite shuai also... the show damn nice laa. jus tt the killing people part abit boring only. lolx

then 9 plus liaox... sheena n ellekay were like fretting cuz the show havent end. then they ask when the show w end... after they asked, the show end liao. haha. cuz got no ending derx... still got death note: the last name mahhx. yeah lohx. then they complain tt they kana cheated cuz the show got no ending. whateverr laa!

after that we went downstairs lohhx. saw mediacorp der car. hahaa. then went to fountain there, listened to 933. heard jiahui and lorita's dedication. [actually i only heard lorita derx. cuz nid untangle wire, tk v long... haha] yeppx then we discussed about friday lohhx. hmmx. after which we went home laa. hahaax. reached home at 10 plus... wheex...


20 Oct 2006, Friday - Shihui's Bdae Celebration @ TongShui

before i mention anything about friday. i want to mention that i got 19/25 for my elit set text! [JLC]. ohh mannx. before the paper i was still complaining tt i duno anything about jlc. LOLS. but ahh wellx. i got 19 for part one, and a pathetic THREE for part two. so i ended up failing my overall too. =.=

okayys. friday! :)

public speaking workshop in the morning... chinese lessons after recess... the workshop instructor sounded like miss swan. :P

hmm okayys. went home after sch to prepare shihui's present. suay suay the northpoint photo developing machine spoil... then the other machine got people... so bo bian, came home use printer to print lohhx. then ran around doing stuff... until i forget to write letter... after leaving house, was like thinking i din bring smth. in e end i realised tt i forgot to write letter. so had to write it on the mrt. haha...

yeppx. then reached jurong east... waited for shihui. then minhui called and said she didnt know where clementi was. BLAH. hahaa. din see shihui but we boarded the same train in e end. reached clementi, went to look for sheena...then we waited like another half hour for minhui. lolx... jiahui they all reached tongshui already...

after that went to take 285 to tongshui. stopped at the wrong bus stop. hahaa. then on the way there we were discussing about deathnote and blahhs. deathnote ROCKS! :)

went into tongshui... biru was hiding at the toilet there preparing the cake or smth. then shihui wanted to go toilet, we were supposed to stop her from going la. but before any of us cld do that, she walk there liaoox. then biru was like AHHH! haha damn funny laa~! lolx.... jiahui still go tell her where the toilet is... then like kana scold by biru haha.

so biru brought e cake out... then we sang happy bdae song. yahh hahaas. after that we ate cake! informal... jus scoop from the cake lohhx. hahaa. then we left abit for ellekay... we wanted to wait for ellekay to come before ordering food lah, so meanwhile we crapped rubbish lohx. lol... cant rmb what we said liaoox. then shihui keep saying "u all dun wan to eat meh?" then minhui was like, we dun wan to eat "meh"... wahlaux... damn funny laa!~

ellekay finally reached at 7plus... then me and sheena went outside to look for her to put our letters into the "drum". yeppx then we gave our presents to shihui... she opened the merry-go-round photo frame. then start laughing like siao... duno why... then in e end is because she open liao then see nic's face. then start laughing. wahlau, got so funny merhx?? -_-"

blahhs. then after seeing e presents... finally order food to eat liaos. haha. ordered milo toast [whatever tts called] , spicy noodles and ice lemon coke. shared the milo toast w minhui and sheena. wahlau, shudnt hv ordered it... make me laugh like siao la. this minhui horx, always try to tiao yu bing der....

SH: 你們點水先leh...
MH: huh,水仙是什麼??

SH: 你們不要吃meh?
MH: 我們不要吃"meh" leh...

S: 我切不到地板leh~
MH: huh,你要切到地板hor,還要切那個盤跟桌子leh.

wth lorhx! then sheena like duno how to cut the thing. damn funny lahhs... sheena also abit =.= laa. di ban... hahaha. she meant the plate laa. LOLS can..!

then cuz tongshui got tv rights... then got show deathnote der commercial. we all like watch until damn ji dong la. hahaa... L SO CUTE. lols!

we super noisy siaa. at one pt we sumore started mo fang-ing the ai de chu ti yan os... so paiseh! LOLS. then jiahui say she wan tell ghost story. biru and minhui w qi si her lorhx... hahaas...cuz like she say what, the person wan the ring, cuz he got no money to buy house etc. then they'll be like, then why he wan to buy house? why he got no money? why he so poor? and crap qns like tis laa. wth lorhx. then i was like, wait jiahui w be the first person to say ghost story until cry siaa... hahaha

we noisy until... when we leaving, karin was telling us... later go out dun be so noisy, if not people w call the police... hahahas! but aiyaa, we noisy also not first day derx. rmb tt time at mdc, wahlau damn paiseh siaa. haha. cuz we from radio gate walk towards recept... then cab stand there got ALOT of people, we din know. so we were singing ai de chu ti yan OS, then when we walked up the slope, everyone stare at us. HAHA. even walk upstairs liao we still singing lorhx. lol...heng at tt time dun hv other superband at the cab stand... hahaha. scarli soul there, then die siaa. others still okayy cuz they duno us. LOLS.

hmm... then me minhui and sheena were laughing like siao... while biru shihui and ellekay eat until v calm lidat. wth laaa. all thanks to MINHUI. hahaha...make me laugh until i cannot eat lorhx. lol...

then we left tongshui at 8 plus... went around taking photos. NOISY again. hahaha! i think if is not uncle benny... they throw us out of the shop liao laa. haha. took group photo etc. then jiahui hit biru on the chin like thrice lah! omg... hahaas... damn funny lorhx...

and thnns... ellekay and me were like trying to snatch the receipt. haha.cuz we wanted to treat shihui. then she paid liaoos... so we wanted to like pay her back or smth. then she dun wan gv us the receipt. so we were snatching receipt for like five whole minutes. LOL laaa. then ellekay damn lag... biru went to tk photo w shihui to distract her... then biru was hinting ellekay to grab the receipt. ellekay still gong gong go disturb them tk photo... haha abit wth laa. LOLS.

oh yaa. then we leaving lerrs, went to say bye to the other table of mlbians... karin they all... yepp then shihui went "美女們,你們要走了嗎?" then we turned and stared at eric and wenda... "美女們?" HAHA... super funny siaa! then after tt when walking to bus stop... eric n wenda infront, us girls behind. then we shouted "美女!!" OMG. hahaha! damn funny laaa~~~

LOLS. then we like laugh and crap at e bus stop... damn lame laa. then took 285 back to clementi mrt lohhs. me biru shihui sheena took the same train. then we crapped again laa. haha. all of us watched deathnote already!~ then we took a photo of our tickets. :)

yepp lidat lohhs... then came home... haha...

and jus rmbed smth... omg so paiseh hahaha... me sheena biru were on mrt talking about the kdf concert... then i was like, is at fort siloso hor? then biru went, huh, not fort canning merhx? then i realised tt i've been saying fort SILOSO all along. wahlau, i feel so dumb. HAHA. abit fort siloso is at sentosa. and fort siloso is so NOT a place for a concert laa! wth... i feel super stupidd... blerhx! =.=

i think im not making sense. ahh wells. i got STM lah! cant rmb what happen liaoos. and im like super tired today. duno whyyx. slept from like 1am to 330pm today. then 5pm to 830pm. BLEH. so lazy. haha! i still want to sleep. RAHH

got a new wallet today. yayys~ billabong again. and i bought EVAN'S ALBUM!!!!!!! yayy! i love EVAN YO. der songs. haha i duno how hes like laa. only see his photos before, nv see him on tv before... but his songs are real nice. all self composed i think!
yeppx please support EVAN YO, 蔡旻佑!~ evan ROCKS~

uhh yeahhs.... haha :P


21 Oct 2006, Saturday- Death Note [again], LeeHom's Concert!

was supposed to meet maggy at 12pm. then in the end i woke up at 12pm. hahaha. hmm okayys went to PS to meet her... then we went DAISO to buy stuff. cuz i wanted to buy tidbits. hahaa. bit siao hor, go all e way to PS to buy tidbits. whatever lah haha. bought like 10 bucks worth of tidbits, then we went to KFC to have lunch. ate the usual stuff lohhs. zinger student meal... haha

after that took train down to harbourfront. wahlau, DAMN SCARY. how come so many people der?! really is 人山人海siaa... people mountain people sea lorhx. LOLS. anyways. yepp then we squeezed thru e crowd... went to vivocity. hmm we went to toysrus! HAHA. damn funny laa. cuz got those turn turn der machine... "egg" machine or whatever tts called. 扭蛋機?whatever. yeppx...

then got this toy... pics below. i was saying tt think sam got the same one. so i was like... erhx, i wan lerhx! then maggy wanted another one... so both of us went to turn... then maggy got her red one, i got my white/black one! hahaha... so in the end, maggy named her ahREAL. i named mine ahSAM. lame siaa. LOLS. but its cute! and its sorta different from sam's. aiyah whatever lah. also not because of him then buy der. haha

and then maggy dropped her ahREAL on the floor. wahlau... then i started laughing like siao... cuz the way the thing roll away, then the way she was chasing it was like damn funny. LOLS. think we more kiddy than the kids lah! HAHA...

okayys after that we went to sit down.. and zi pai! LOLS. then ard 4 went to gv lerrs. maggy helped me to hide my bag of daiso tidbits. HAHA. cuz her bag big enough mahhs. lols...then we say tt she went to rob daiso… hahaha :P

OH. forget to mention. we went to candy empire! wahhs... so many things to buy. hahaa... and there was like super 人山人海oso lahh. long queue siaa. we bought this spray thingy. then i bought this sweet squeeze tube thingy. whatever tts called. yepppx... spent 6 bucks there...

urh back to gv. went up, then bought popcorn and lemon tea. we were in hall 11... at the side of row C. then even before the movie started, i alr finished like 1/4 of the popcorn liao lorhx. haha... hmm then the movie started... LIGHT is shuai~! the god of death super funny lahhs. LOLS. yeah quite fun to watch the 2nd time. but the killing people part damn sian... so boring! haha. when come to killing people i start sleeping. LOL

L IS CUTE :) i think the people watching on tt day were weird. they laugh at weird stuff can. hahaha...

hmm, then finished watching the movie... i nearly froze to death inside canns! wahlau... shihui said she wanted to meet me, so me and maggy went to candy empire to wait for her lohs. maggy wanted to buy sumore stuff... i also wan buy la, but i was BROKE. haha...

oh and thenns... maggy said her ahREAL w become Real Light. wth, got fake light sumore siaa. LOLS. then mine's Sam Ryuzaki. or simple, SAM L. haha...then in the end it became ellekay's twin. elleSAM. LOLS!

then shihui came, so we left vivo... maggy went to tk bus home, me and shihui took mrt down to kallang. reached kallang ard 8, then we took cab down to indoor stadium. actually, we din buy tics... jus wanted go there listen lohhs. hahaa... other people spend 100 over bucks to go in watch and listen... we only spend 6 bucks on cab fare can listen liaoos. cheapest tic 78 bucks lerhx. so far cannot see also... hahaa...

saw star idol bryan and pss sinhuey. din see people we wanted to see lerhx. hahaa... wanted to buy the leehom merchandise der, but think their stuff out of stock liaoos. sian ahhs.

we went to north entrance to chui aircon. HAHA. cuz there got the star watch thingy. so i pretend stand there tk photos of the star watch... but actually i was trying to chui the aircon loh. lols...

and thenns there was this guy... who went to ask the north entrance guy if he cld buy tics. then he say sistic close liaoos... so cant get.. sumhow, 15min later, we saw him running back w tics... duno where he get from der siaa. i also wan lerhx! haha...

yeahhs we listened to 45 minutes of the concert. recorded kiss goodbye. haha... then we left the place at 915pm lohhs.

yeppx. took train back... came online to watch the death note: the last name trailer. damn cool siaa! tt pic of Light super SHUAI.
hahaa... damn addicted to death note now... hahas...

Evan Yo - 城外

城外面 我就快要崩潰
城裏 你不了解
狂風中 飄著 我的眼淚
你有沒有感覺

我的 傷口早已經 無所謂
醒了 依然繼續追
前線上 絕對不撤退
儘管寂寞 太漆黑

城外面我被重重包圍
會不會閉上眼
戰火裡我沒有了知覺
別忘了 你是誰

a small part of the lyrics. i think his songs are super sweet... like 簡單,我可以etc... v sweet lyrics! RECOMMENDED! :)

ahhs. i havent seen milubing for 15 days already. hahaa... and i havent seen zhiyang for more than a mth! omgosh... SO LONG!
havent seen fir for 12 days. im missing them!!! no zeewhy events for the time being... mlb nxt event... nov 4, kdf event at fort canning. blehhx. 75 bucks lerhhx... I WANT TO GO LAA. someone spon me?! haha u can spon me for my bdae. bleahhs. :P


23 Oct 2006, Monday- School!

hmm... first thing of the day was power 98 school invasion. ARGH. forgot to listen to power 98 last night! grrs. anyways. the 2 djs were here to talk to us... erhhx... rosalind?? okayy forget it, i cant rmb her name. and jensen. hmm yeah then they asked qns, gave away stuff blah blah blah. the thing was pretty short lohhs. yepp then they intro-ed all e djs to us etc. now im quite interested in radio industry... haha maybe not as a dj, but as a behind-the-scenes person. yeah seems quite fun! haha

i think radio is cool. haha... then they told us alot about radio. interesting laa. "threatre of the mind" or smth lidat. cant rmb. means tt they cant show us e stuff, but they can like, talk and make us imagine whatever they're trying to say. interesting yahhs...

okayy anyways. the thing ended at ard 9... with the last 15 minutes talking crap. haha they were like trying to get jensen to sing and blahh... and then they were talking about orange bowl and whatever rubbish lahh haha. oh andds. i duno if i heard correctly, but i think jensen mentioned smth about fir lerhx? hahaa... cuz he was saying... chinese radio listeners are crazy, fir come to town, u see a whole load of taxis behind. duno if i heard correctly laa. ahh who cares haha...

after the power 98 thingy was loose cannons play thingy. was pretty boring at first. then the behind was like super funny laa hahas... we paid 6 bucks for tt lerhx. mus enjoy mahhs. lols... then at one part the person was like acting... then he had to like point at somewhere far and act lahhs. so the thing was, he pointed in this direction...and innocent yang happened to be standing there taking photos. then in e end it seemed like he was pointing at her, then everyone started laughing... HAHA...

lols... went for recess at 1015, then went to mpr for the sexuality education thingy... hahahaa... then halfway thru, mrs gurung started talking about "sensitive new age guy" then i started laughing... HAHA. [mlb fans w know whyy... LOL] so diaoos!~ then smsed sheena about it... she was saying she miss mlb alot and whateverrs. then i was like, actually im okayy lorhs. dont miss them alot hahaa...

think my mlb obsession thingy is over already. lols. but i still like them laa. lols. las time is like, wake up, first thing think of mlb. duno why also... now wake up, first thing, wahlau, i dun wan go sch. hahaha... las time is, while walking can suddenly think of what mlb did then start smiling to myself. now is walk, then suddenly think of what mess and mlb frenx did then start laughing. siao lahh hahas. dun miss them alot... but wanna see them cuz got stuff to tell them lohhs... tts all hahaa...

and i miss huangzhiyang liaoos. LOLS. havent seen him for like 1 1/2 mth lerrs~ think their drama start filming liaoos. hmm...

10 more days to the kdf event...arghhs. i wan go lerh! can some kind soul like sponsor me... hahaha~ bet the performance w be good. but. lets hope the sound system is good. if not someone w start complaining again hahaa... lols... but really, have to complain lahs. why the sound always lidat der!
blerhx!~

okayy anyways, after the thing was chinese lessons... before tt went back to class, went to li lun w mr wong... hahaa... ming ming jiu shi his thing nv write clearly mah, still say until like i stupid lidat... =.= i go do the survey... sure alot of people dunno der lorhs! even ms khor also say she duno lerhx! GRR. irritating.... then went for chinese lessons, wasnt paying attention.... lols. was looking at the fir yinyuehui tic in my wallet. then suddenly chenlaoshi called me, i raised up my hand.... and in my hand was the ticket. hahaha... phews, heng is the black colour side face her, if not i die siaa. lol

hmm yeah lohs, after sch... chia wanted to ask me go watch deathnote. she wanted spon me... but i din wan cuz i lazy go out lerrs. hahas. and i alr watch twice lerrs. watch one more time i think i'll fall asleep...debbs also trying to get me to watch again lorhs. haha... i wan watch deathnote 2! jus bought the comics today. damn nice laa. addicted liaoos.deathnote rocks manns! ohh and bought the notebook from comic connections ytd. blahhs

thinking if i shud watch sinking of japan.... looks quite scary lerhx. hahaha...

by the way. Before last tues… the last time I watched a movie was 22 nov 2005. HARRY POTTER. Hahaa… I haven’t watched movie for a year! Rah. Im poor u know. LOLS. And tt harry potter movie was maggy treat me derrs. Lol… :D


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ohh another thing... think my-fir was on mtv ytd. hahaas... i duno laa. cuz tt time at the auto, the mtv guy came to interview us. or
rather, yilin and the other guy. then he said tt it wld be shown on mtv on 23rd oct. which was like ytd. but ahh wells, none of us
have got that channel. hahaha.. did anyone manage to catch it?? update us!~ :)